2003-05-24 - 10:26 a.m.
19 days, and counting.
.. i don't know. it seems a lot faster when i say the days as opposed to the weeks. well. in my opinion, that is.
you know, with every passing day, i fall in love with josh a little more.
.. and with every day it gets closer for me to leave, i miss him more. if that makes sence to anyone?
i'll get through this, tho. i'm a strong girl, as i'm told by everyone i know. 19 damn days.
well, june 7 friends and family will be here to have a get together for me. a sorta going away party. i'm looking forward to it.
.. i know this may sound horrible, but i don't know if i'll miss much when i'm gone. sure, i'll miss family and some friends. but.
i don't know. there's so much that i won't miss. and so many people.
it's funny, but i bump into people that i rarely talk to, and they instantly say "oh! i wanna come if you are having a going away party! i'm gonna miss you so much!! we were suppost to do stuff together?"
and i'm thinking "WHAT? yea.. we haven't talked in, like, years, and you wanted to do something this particular summer? the one that i decided to be with the guy i love... sure!"
it's insane!
whatever, tho. the people i'll miss know who they are. and most of them will be present at the airport the day i leave. *smiles*
and maybe, i sound shallow. or bitter. or just straight up bitchy. i don't know. i just know that most of the people claiming to be missing me, really will not keep in touch when i'm gone. and.. it's disappointing.
and sad.
but you really can't do much about who people are. and what they are made of, you know? it's just not possible.
well, gotta go. bye!
