2003-05-12 - 12:37 p.m.
i'm a slacker when it comes to this diary...
.. and i'm wondering if i should stop writing in it. i don't really write much of substance. it's lacking.
well. not to me. i love writing about josh. and i know that shouldn't matter to me. but i will say that i love writing and having someone writing in my notes/gbook telling me that my entry that day was amazing.. i, too, like the attention..
i just know that the reason i haven't been writing in here is because i'm happy. and i'm in love. and my focus on life has changed. i started these diaries back when i was unhappy in my course of life. i needed somewhere to write about my world.. and why it sucked. and why i had such sucky friends.
.. and now? i don't have that.
sure, i have the occasional fight with my mom like any person has when she's almost EXACTLY like the woman who has raised her. and yes, even i have moments where my friends irritate me. or where my day sucks such ass and my boyfriend.. err, i take that back, my fiance' and i declare that date a day of "never leaving the house for the rest our of lives" because it was so bad for us..
.. but everyone has bad days w/the people in their lives. it happens.
it just seems like this diary is more of a choir rather than a delight like it use to be.
i don't really intend on ending it because there are moments in my life where i need to just add entries about irritations, special moments, my love for josh, friends, and family..
*sigh*
