2003-03-14 - 2:27 p.m.
.. well, i can't write too long because josh should be coming back very soon from paying bills, and i told him i would be dressed [make-up, hair, shoes. everything done] by the time he gets here.
i've noticed that since i've been dating someone, i've slowly turned into my sister.
how have i turned into my sister, you ask?
.. well, once my sister started dating her now husband, she started slowly becoming late for everything. and once she got married, it was worse. she was even late for our grandmother's funeral. i can't even tell you the last time my sister was ON time for something.
and now, i'm thinking it's in our blood because i'm doing it now. i don't know if it irritates josh at all. but, i did promise him that when he got back here today, i would be done. but since he has left, i've been checking out diaries, editing my profile, and, well, simply, slacking off.
.. i am soo not gonna be ready when he gets here.
as one might see, i'm a layout whore. i've changed it once again. *laughs* i needed something simple. and i like.
.. i'm sure it won't last too long.
well, yesterday, josh put my desk together. it is perfect. i added all my cutsey stuff to it once he was done. i have all my computer desk personality, as elle calls it.
i'm digging my desk. and it's perfect for everything too.
.. josh said something that SHOCKED me. he had set up the desk, put the computer on the desk, and he smiled.
replies: "i don't mind that i did this."
I ask: "why?"
"Well, it'll be in our house one day, so, the fact that i put a lot of work into it doesn't bother me."
talk about being about as shocked as can be. i mean, yes, we've talked about it. but.. i don't know. sometimes it doesn't hit me until he says something like that.
wowsersssss..
it's not a freaked out shocked by any means. it's a .. i don't know. a nice shocked.
.. these few months have been amazing. being in his arms. sharing his kisses. holding his hand.
i loved the times we shared before that, no doubt. i mean, we were friends. flirting friends, of course, but friends nonetheless. but, i loved his company. and his laughter. to be around him made me.. well, happy. and i knew that, one day, we were going to be together..
.. and these months? amazingly beautiful.
