2003-06-06 - 12:01 p.m.
you know, maybe i'm just bad with friends. i can never pick the right ones. sure, i have a few good ones. but damn, my bad ones sure have out-weighed the good ones, that is for sure!!
.. i have a friend in statesboro that i've been close to for about six or so years. i met him online, and about three years back, we finally met in person. we were just great friends. well, we always emailed one another, but this past year, it just seemed like his visit was lacking. or maybe, something was up. i don't know. but there was something wrong. i didn't press him or anything because that's just not who i am because whenever i pressed him before he would get pissed!
well, the emails would come less and less. and finally, they didn't come. and at one point, i didn't care. he had a tendacy of not replying for months and months on end, so i didn't put much of anything into this.
.. when i found out that josh and i were engaged and i was moving to illinois, i wanted to tell him. he was someone i always told when good news had come my way. no reply. waited a few weeks. wrote again. no reply. well, finally, i massed emailed everyone. still, no reply. well, the other day, i sent out a survey for everyon, and he REPLIES!!!
and one thing struck me.
one of the questions was "do online friendships last?" and i replied with something like "yes, but it depends. i don't believe online relationships last, but i believe friendships do. you just have to make them work.."
well, replies with "nopers. they don't"
now, that fucking hurt!! i mean, come on, dude. our friendship started online! at least he could have made something up!
it didn't end there. at the end of the survey, i had written "well, have fun, eh? well, good. do it then! *smiles*" and he replied "nope. it was stupid!"
that cut like a knife. i mean, damn. what an ass! so, being that i hold nothing back anymore [thanks joshua! *smiles*] i wrote back saying "if you had the time to write out a whole survey that you didn't enjoy, why couldn't you have wrote out a letter just saying how your life is.. but that's ok. whatever."
i explained that i leave in six days, and it would have been nice to keep in touch with someone who has been a good friend of mine for six years. i also said that i had kept in touch this time. that i had written many times to him, and yes, there were mass emails, but at that point, i was given one more try to get his attention as a friend. but at this point, it's not even worth it.
.. i just thought he was a good friend. whatever, i guess.
i'm getting my best friend. in six days. and honestly, that's hella worth it!! *smiles*
