2003-04-08 - 10:42 p.m.
just a note:
i'm sorry i've been slack w/replying to msgs in my gbook. i will do my best to get to all of you & tell ya how things are going w/me. thanks for the patience!
got pictures back from the trip josh and i took to savannah..
.. the amazing cathedral pictures..
they are beautiful. get's me thinking that i really really want to get married there. it's amazing.
one day, i'm going to find some way to get pictures up so that all can see this cathedral. as well as pics of me and josh.
.. i have moments during the week that i do amazingly fine. i even have days where i can deal with the fact that he's gone. but than..
something hits me.
like getting film back from a trip you had taken together or poses you had take together only days before he had left.
.. pictures with that smile. that boyish grin that makes me puddy in his hands.
elle and i talked about visiting him at the end of june. i really think she's up for this. she doesn't want to do the RV thing, tho. she would prefer to fly [which is something i do not mind at all. i hate driving in anything that has wheels. too long]. i think that would be perfect, tho.
it would basically be the middle marker of the six months. josh and i are most determinded not to go the six months w/out seeing one another. i don't think i could do that.
i can survive three months, but i sure as heck know i can't survive six months w/out his kisses... and hugs.. and cuddles. it's just something i will not do.
i should go, tho. i need to do something to occupy my mind.
bye..
