2003-05-14 - 12:09 p.m.
yes. i'm bored. so sue me!
1.Life after death or death after life?
*i'd prefer life after death. i don't think i'd want to be walking around the world dead after i've lived my life, haunting loved ones. i don't even like the thought that some of my loved ones might be doing that.
2.Would you rather have an uncureable disease that was not deadly, but painful, or would you rather have a painless disease where you only had so long left to live?
*definitely a painless disease where i only had so long to live. if i only had six months to live, i'd rather NOT feel the pain but enjoy being with the ones i love.. and enjoy the time i had with my friends, family, loved ones.
3.If you and the love of your life broke up but agreed to be friends, would you rather be hurt the rest of your life and not talk to him, or would you rather talk to him but your feelings continued to grow for him and there was nothing you could do to get back together?
*i don't know if i could be cordial to the love of my life. if i broke up with the person who i had given my heart to, and we broke up for some odd reason, i don't know if friendship could be something i could give that person. it would be very hard for me, esp if i had to see him being extra friendly with other girls. i think it would be just an extra loop in an already emotional roller coaster that i don't want to endear.
4.Family pressure or peer pressure?
*which do i prefer? or which do i not prefer? *laughs* well, i can deal with family pressure a lot easier than peer pressure because i can tell a family to bug off a lot easier because they are loved ones. i know that i can go back to them and explain that what they are doing is really screwed up, and that they need to stop. explaining that to a friend is not that easy for some odd reason. for 17 years, i had that problem with friends. i couldn't say jack shit to her, but i sure as hell could say anything to my sister about what was bothering me. WHY!? because my sister was my family. and i knew she'd understand. and she'd love me at the end of the night. that simple.
5.Your brother going to war or your brother going to jail for twenty years?
*well. i don't have a brother. i do have a cousin, tho. he's been to jail. and i've dealt with that. but i don't know if i could deal with him going to war. not being able to see him, hear him, would just.. i don't know.. kill me. with him being in jail, at least there would be visitations.. war is harder.
6.Is life really worth it? You live then you die. Everything you worked so hard for will be gone.
*that's definitely a pessimistic way of looking at it. and yes, life is worth it. esp if you've accomplished everything you set out to do in life. if you've done that, death doesn't seem so final.
7.If you could know the exact day you were going to die, would it change the kind of person you'd be?
*i don't know. maybe. i think knowing that i'd being dying on a certain date would make me live in fear. it would allow me to know that each day that passed was one less day i have with the people i love.. i believe i'd start looking through the world a little less thorough my rose colored glasses.. open up a little more, and realize that the world isn't the pretty place it is.. i think reality would hit!
8.If you could know the exact day you were going to die, would it change the things you would do?
*yes. i think i'd be a little less like myself. people think that they'd live life to the fullest. jump out of planes. go skinny dipping. all that crazy stuff. i don't think i'd do any of that. i believe i'd become closer to myself and my family. i think i'd start taking life a little less for granted... appreciating the world like it should be.. and loving the ones that deserve it.
9.Do you realize that everyone is going to die eventually and you shouldn't put it off until tomorrow...there may not be tomorrow.
*nah! if we did that, we'd be living in fear. and that's why i don't want to know the exact date i'm going to die. let me enjoy my life. i understand that tomorrow i could die, or even today. but you know what!? i'm putting my rose colored glasses on! ;)
10.Is life really a precious gift if bad stuff happens to you all the time and never gets better, it only leaves unresolved answers followed by more pain and hurt?
*that's exactly why life is a precious gift. we must handle it with care, and if one doesn't, it breaks.. it's obvious we aren't handling it with care, because bad stuff is happening every day..
The next part in this is just questions of approaching certain things.
1.If you and your mother fought for years and you wanted to make up with her, how would you go about doing it?
*i don't think it would take much. just a simple cry-fest. a few tears. and my mom and i would be done. the love would be renewed. doesn't take much for mom and i to make up.
2.Say you were in to some bad stuff like drugs and alcohol, you weren't planning on quitting, but you wanted to confront your parents. How would you go about doing so?
*well, my cousin just got arrested with some huge drug bust in town, and that's how he approached the family.. and that seemed to have worked. he didn't get into any HUGE trouble with the family because he knew the was in BIG trouble with the law and his life [he almost lost his FULL scholarship to the college he's attending..], but my family still supported him. we were stern with him that if he did it again that life for him with his family would not be easy. and he got his butt in gear. so, my family's not to hard core about approaching them about things like that. i'd just talk to them.
3.What do you say to a best friend who just lost their mother to make her feel better when she was like your second mother?
*you don't say anything. sometimes, unspoken words are the best things in a time like that.. you just take them in your arms, and comfort them. let them cry... get there feelings out.. and when they want YOU to talk.. that's when you tell them it will be ok. and when times get rough, you'll be there for a shoulder always.
4.How do you take away the pain of losing a loved one?
*you never do. sometimes, it's always there.
