2003-04-06 - 3:11 a.m.
i'm a wreck.
and i didn't realize it until tonight.
i miss him. so much.
i thought i was strong. i really did. but something in me tonight caused me to just cry. i'm sure this will happen for a few more days.. maybe even weeks.
i'm hating this w/a passion.
i got a calender online. i needed it. just to count the days.
.. but it seems like years. until we meet again.
i hate that.
i miss you, joshie [if you're reading this]. my heart feels lost w/out you as do i. all my love, babe. all my love right to you.
