2003-03-23 - 10:32 p.m.
.. ok. i know that this isn't the layout i had a few days ago. but for some odd reason, the next and prev button were not working right. it would send me to someone else's diary. i just wasn't having that.
i decided on this layout. it's beautiful, and it also has a special meaning because when josh is gone, i'll be thinking those exact thoughts.
not only will I miss him, but my bed will miss him, too. all around, he'll be well missed.
.. today was semi-ok. i woke up late, unlike saturday when i was up at nine to help my father and josh paint the house. i ended up making breakfast instead. but, sleeping late felt nice. oh*so*nice.
josh and i ended up at walmart for my mom, getting some stuff for around the house. i got my pictures from saint augustine today. absolutely beautiful.
other than that, nothing too eventful happened. i had a yummie dinner that my sister made. delicious spaghetti carbonara w/a greek salad.
.. it's pathetic when the high light's of your day were sleeping in, pictures from a trip, and dinner made by your sis.
Yea. i need a life.
*sigh*
.. josh leaves in a week and a half. i've been putting off this thought for a few months now, but.. as it slowly approaches.. i'm hit smack dab in the middle of my face w/reality.
i hate reality.
i don't like thinking that at one point, i'm going to go to bed, and he won't be there. i don't like thinking that i will see his smile only in pictures. i don't like the thought that his hand will not grace mine for six months.
.. i don't like any of this. i don't like it at all.
and once again, i'm going to bury my head in the sand until the day it actually occurs. i'm better at that.
i know these thoughts are in my head. i'm aware. but, emotionally, i'm better at digging me head in the sand. if i focus on them too much, i'll be a wreck. an emotional wreck.
*sigh*
back to the sand i go.
