2003-05-15 - 2:00 p.m.
well. i've been doing some thinking.
i'm leaving june 6 to visit josh. and i'm returning june 15.
i started to think. why am i leaving so early? i mean, i don't have a real job. [i babysit for my sisters brats!] and i don't have to take any classes. so. why do i have to stay only a week and a few days?
.. at first, i was staying that long because i thought i had to take second session classes at CGCC, but i don't anymore..
therefore, why not stay longer?
and, i think i will.
josh and i were talking about it on the phone today on his lunch break. i have no major obligations.
hmmm. just thought i'd put that out there.
.. hmm, might even just stay up there and say fuck the workshop i was suppost to work for. i could get a job while i'm up there.. it's possible.
i'm just sick of being here. i just want to be with josh. where i belong. where i need to be.
.. where i'm meant to be.
i'll just talk to josh about it tonight when he calls back.
i need to start packing up my room tonight. my sister moves in THIS weekend. yes, this weekend. that means, she's bringing her three wonderfully bratty children with her [tho i do love them to death..], and i don't know if i can deal with this.. it's gonna be hella crazy!!
.. my mom, my dad, elle, tori, will, libby, and me living in a three bedroom, two bathroom house?
oh! wait, i forgot to mention! a dog named muffin and a cat named twinkie who clearly do NOT get along!
.. it's going to be hell on earth! maybe moving to chicago next month doesn't sound too bad after all. in fact, it sounds rather welcoming!
well. i need to do some laundry. and i need to start packing. soon, i'll be back in my old room. sleeping on a trundle bed on the floor. with my sister on a day bed above me. it'll feel like we're growing up all over again.
*oh boy*
